From: anonymous@moon.com (Jade-Blue Eclipse)
Subject: sleepy eyed story

As far as I could remember,it has always been this way.
Cold and desolate around me,making me feel like the sun.
Burning through everything
Memories that I left
Burnt marks on someone's brain cells
Now warmth,now pain,than a scar
I remember the first time I danced on stage
I remember feeling so alive that I thought death was so close
Than 3 guys stood up and left 
and 2 more .....
And I knew I was doing the right thing
They say that sex industry will burn a person OUT
I had nothing to loose.
So many dancers,so many drugs.I knew I wanted it straight.
stares ,comments goes down my throat like fire water
Someone asked me what I was doing here.
I'm looking for my ghost.
I'm looking for my ghost.
I'm searching for the truth to tell me what is false
If you could show me what is WRONG maybe I can figure this out.
I'm searching for abuse
I'm running from my past
Some guy asked me who I was
ground meat,I answer.But at least I knew it.
doesn't matter,customer service goes so far,very far and deep
I was born in nagasaki.In times of industrial revolution
I'm the industrial revolution.The product of insanity.
Runs in the family..........
play,rewind,replay my past
hoping the tapes will be so worn,it'll be erased